The Artist- The Tortured Soul

Artists’ are crazy…. Creative people have mental illness…. The smartest or most creative are the craziest… Myth or fact?

In my experience, it is a fact! Artists, creative beings, we don’t fall into the box of the norm. We think outside the box, we see things from a perspective that the average person doesn’t see. The way we choose to see life comes from such a different angle that it is perceived by society as weird, crazy, negative and even mentally challenged. Because we stand outside of society’s norm we are considered “crazy”. But here’s the real crazy part, those who view us as crazy will never see things as we see them, and those of us who are the creative artist will never understand how those judging us can be so closed minded. See, to the creative artist, we are the norm, the way in which we perceive the world is so simplistic in our own realities that we cannot fully grasp how the average person does Not see things as we do. And because there aren’t many that see things as we do, the rest of the world would have you believe that it is us who are crazy, mentally challenged or even ignorant; leaving the artist to feel completely alone. Because although we have our moments of confidence and strength in which we accept that we are considered crazy, we aren’t the norm, we are weird, we love it an accept it. However, we also have moments in which we completely feel alone, because there is no one out there to relate to us! And even though we have come across some other artists who we relate too and connect with, because an artist is always struggling with self and society, we do not always have the energy to cling to our own society of artists.

Do not underestimate the feeling of being alone! There are many characteristics that follow. Each individual has had to face and deal with their own consequences of feeling alone. Whether it’s to work to “fit in”, try and suppress our true ideas and realities, or succumb to society’s idealistic thoughts of who we are suppose to be, we cannot always fully embrace who we are. And, when we do, welcome to the world of feeling as if we live in a world that only exists in our minds!

We live in a society that works it’s hardest to suppress and control us, mainly because they fear the idea of allowing our own thoughts and minds to dictate what we do in our lives! And the sad reality is to realize that 99% of the people that we love and cherish are those who fall into everyday society, therefore, labeling that 1% as crazy or mentally ill. I am one of the proud to stand up and agree that I am weird, I am crazy, I do not fall into the norm, and I accept that, however, I cannot deny the fact that it always leaves me feeling starkfully alone. And there’s a perfect example! I know that “starkfully” is not a word in our traditional English dictionary, however, it makes complete sense to me and therefore will use it. Using it, however, will deem me uneducated, ignorant and who knows what else. I really don’t care, but it will land me in a category to those who do not understand me. I have accepted that in this world, I will not be undersood because I live in my own reality. But I choose my own reality over a world that was created by a society who believes in mass production and control. That might be crazy, but that’s just me!

Who Is He

He catches your attention, you gaze from afar, you notice him noticing you, and then, he approaches you. The conversation flows, the chemistry is intense, a mutual connection, so strong anyone could see. The conversation transitions into laughter, flirtatious touching, increased closeness, and before you realize, you are locked in an intimate kiss. His hands embrace your waist, pulling you closer, your hands wrapped around his head, gently guiding him to remain close. Who is this man who drew you to him without hesitation, and with the simplest gesture caused you to release all inhibition? Who is this person, who made you lose all sense of the world around you just by one kiss? Who is he?

And the journey begins….

I Heart Meditation

In this world full of chaos, the external chaos inevitably infiltrates our personal life, invading our subconscious to remain in a state of war. Consistently fighting, planning for future attacks and remaining on the defensive, we become a being that is always in the fight or flight mode. And although it may be assumed we are intricately planning our attacks and defenses, the reality is that we are usually responding with impetuous responses because someone or some specific event has gotten the best of our emotions at that exact moment. Our minds are cluttered with a combination of past experiences, current personal events and the questions of what our futures will hold. That’s where meditation comes in.

When you begin meditating it may seem as if it is doing absolutely nothing. You may question why you should take time out of your extremely busy day to involve yourself in a practice that will reveal no real results. When in fact, it may be the one practice we should all indulge in on a daily basis because it actually yields the most introspective, satisfying, significant results any single practice can divulge! Once you have implemented meditation into your day-to-day activities, the results will begin to reveal themselves when least expected. Overall you will have a calm, peaceful resonance. You won’t be so quick to act or respond, instead you will have the ability to pause, asses and put thought into every action and reaction. There will even be times when a specific stressful event is occurring and at that very moment if will become evident to you that there has been a shift internally; because you realize that in the past when faced with such a tumultuous event you would have already reacted. The difference now is that you are calm and focused, taking in all the necessary details that will in turn allow you to take action in the most responsible way, not creating any adverse reactions or consequences. When the stresses of life are hitting you, you will still have the overall sense of peace, calmness and focus that you may not have felt in the past.

For me, mediation has slowed my world down, allowing me to asses my life and myself from an outside perspective, in turn allowing me to choose to deal with situations, stresses and struggles in the best way possible. And that’s just the beginning! The inner personal growth¬†and knowledge that is obtained through meditation is even more miraculous! But that’s for another post……

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